Shia LaBeoufis recalling a time when now-wifeMia Gothshowed up for him when he felt like he had no one else.
During an interview withJon Bernthalfor the latter’sREAL ONESpodcast, which aired Wednesday, LaBeouf got emotional as he opened up about being in a Utah rehab center and, during family week, getting a video call from Goth after the two had been estranged for years.
“She saved my f—ing life,” said LaBeouf, 36, through tears. “She was present for me at a time when I didn’t deserve to have nobody in my life, especially her.”
Calling Goth, 28, “a real one,” the actor mused about the “irrational” nature of love in the sense that he felt like he didn’t have anything to offer to her in return, admitting, “It’s the first time I ever really understood love, because I didn’t have nothing to give.”
“She gave me hope when I was really running on fumes,” LaBeouf told Bernthal, 45, of Goth, with whom he shares a 5-month-old daughter namedIsabel.
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Mia Goth and Shia LaBeouf.Karwai Tang/WireImage
During the two-hour sit-down interview with Bernthal, LaBeouf also acknowledged that he has “hurt a lot of people,” including a specific woman, and notedthat he had suicidal thoughtsafter certain allegations went public.
“I hurt that woman,” LaBeouf said, without naming FKA, 34. “And in the process of doing that, I hurt many other people, and many other people before that woman … I was a pleasure-seeking, selfish, self-centered, dishonest, inconsiderate, fearful human being.”
“I f—ed up bad. … [I] hurt a lot of people, and I’m fully aware of that. And I’m going to owe for the rest of my life,” he continued, adding that he has a “long list of people that I need to make amends to.”
Shia LaBeouf.REAL ONES with Jon Bernthal
FKA (real name: Tahliah Barnett)filed a lawsuitagainst ex LaBeouf in December 2020, accusing him of sexual, physical and emotional abuse, as well as knowingly giving her a sexually transmitted disease. A court date has been scheduled for April 17, 2023,Rolling Stonereported in May.
“My failings with Twigs are fundamental and real, but they are not the narrative that has been presented,” LaBeouf told Wilde, 38, in the email. “There is a time and a place to deal with such things, and I am trying to navigate a nuanced situation with respect for her and the truth, hence my silence.”
After announcing that hewas seeking treatmentfollowing the accusations, LaBeouf revealed in the letter that he was627 days sober, referring to the past year as “my great humbling.”
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source: people.com
